The Garden of 1000 Buddhas near Arlee, Montana

Wonderful Retreat

I'm enjoying my trip to Western Montana. I've been up at the family retreat for almost 24 hours and loving every moment of it.

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My Lost Angel(s)

Yesterday would have been my daughter Sierra's 20th birthday. Though she only experienced the outside world for a few short hours, she is with me always. As is often the case, as I witness her "little sister" (my third and only surviving child) growing into the glorious woman she is, I wonder how they would be the same and different.

I worked through my grief a long time ago. As any parent that has survived the loss of a child will tell you, the mixed emotions and sense of lost hopes and dreams never goes away. I chose (both this year and last) to volunteer for Pride with Sam and all of my friends all weekend. I would rather smile, love, laugh, and help than sit at home alone in tears.

I can't help but wonder how my daughters' father felt yesterday watching Sam's award ceremony. (and of course graduation last week) I learned many years ago to not ask him. We each go through it in our own way; I can't judge his way just because it's not my way.

Today is a day just for me. To rest, relax, and be ready to deal with whatever thoughts and emotions come up. I will be mindful and wise-minded. Today and every day, I will take care of myself, so that I can continue to love, help, and support others.

Happy (belated) Father's Day. Bright blessings to you all!

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Local 'Powwow'

If you're in the Portland metro area, consider attending the powwow at Beaverton high school. Grand entry @1, dinner at 5-5:30.
Though by lineage I am 1/8, my heart and soul feel most at home celebrating my native heritage & spirituality. The weather is spectacular and I'm really looking forward to it.

Bright blessings wherever you may be, this weekend and always.

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The house and/or its ghost

I haven't lived in this house for a year. Any time I am in it by myself for more than about 10-15 minutes, I feel it change and not in a positive way. I know there's folks who are skeptical of such things, but others will know exactly what I mean.

When I was here on Memorial Day (even with Tgrog present) weird stuff happened after awhile. I hope it likes the new owners better.

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